Wednesday, February 7, 2018

Assessing current situation

Years ago was in San Francisco, but ended up as part of a group layoff back November 2010, which surprised me some. Had a great separation package, but also was suspicious that web activity had a role to play, as had finally put up pictures, which I still use now, across social media.

Regardless had evidence from web analytics that web things of mine were pulling global interest, which was puzzling. Really was just the web analytics and wondered why wasn't other evidence, and especially, why money didn't seem to be a significant part of that picture.

Working at solving the puzzle kept running into the pragmatic reality of running low on funds, and eventually had to leave San Francisco, and moved in with my Mom, in a volatile situation as her husband has a history of abuse. Yes, then was kind of better with me there to give him some fear, and yes we, the family, have wanted her to leave him for decades. Talked that situation enough in this post so will continue.

My global web reality was shifting during this time but not going away. Across several categories where THIS blog is not really that global according to web stats. But two others: Some Math and Beyond Mundane are.

Also my open source project I noted in 2014 had a history of downloads from over 150 countries. Where also notably is a very quiet area for me. That is without any complaints or thanks. Main thing for me has been the steady downloads which averaged a bit over 9 per day.

Web quiet has been a problem. But also is welcome, but also is a mystery. And is now a problem, as how do you make money then? If could work a regular job, then ok. But now apparently does interfere with that as well. I guess.

Picking up from where prior posts left off, ended up in Macon, GA, USA which should have worked out. One reason was public transportation, which was important here in Georgia as too many areas require you to have a car to get around. That worked out well.

Also working with Georgia Vocational Rehab should have worked as planned also. Have noted my counselor who has left seemed intent on me working for the state. I have no interest in working for the state, but my web activity am sure precludes it. The placement at Helms Career Center should have worked as well. Have not elaborated, but have never had to simply walk away from a job as was necessary there. And with a lecture to staff about appreciating the importance of their jobs to community. The Macon area definitely needs that place working.

Is weird. Good plans have consistently failed. Help that should have worked has just kind of supported, but not as much as possible? Have noted my own recognition of likely collapse of coping mechanisms from childhood abuse, but that should have been picked up by therapists. Regardless can emphasize now. Still also so much quiet, which have noted, and when I note here?

That phone rings again, usually.

Will continue to assess the situation. The global reality is stable and does not depend on money things, at all. Which means am handling certain things on a global scale, while still struggling local with figuring out how am to make money. While global focused money-making efforts have all failed. Which am also studying and did not discuss here as out of scope.

Key thing? Is the quiet. How is it possible to have so much global for so long with so much quiet around it?

Assessment: current situation weird, with money a critical area, must solve. Endeavor to puzzle out lack of proper responses in all relevant areas.


James Harris

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